The Issues

Finding resources and credible accounts of anything that I have been studying. The biggest help I've received is from a source I can not prove exists. Though I've had others experience the things I did, though some couldn't no matter how persistent.
I need a more professional individual to help my search for knowledge, however proving credibility is possibly the biggest fault.

A Great Trial

I am researching the components of a soul. To use a soul the main point many have done before was absorb the souls energy, I intend to use every single piece of it. The conscience, energy and form will be used for a grand spell, that if done correctly, could drastically change the world.
Impossible it may seem, and will have a great risk of failure. The consequences for doing such could very well kill me, completely fail (nothing happens) or leave the world soulless.

The issues of self learning

Self teaching can only take you so far. Although I've gotten fairly far with research and meditation, I cannot move forward. So I have decided to look for someone who can train me in these arts.
I would appreciate any form of help. Books would probably help until they no longer.