Problems

I have a new problem, one that is far more personal. It may delay my presentation, I wish it won't. However, I don't know if I will get it completed in time and find a spell to preform that is worth preforming. The problem is one that I regret, and wish to undo. I will try my best to correct the wrongs that I had done and change myself. Otherwise I may try something conceived as impossible.
Not to mention the Earth and Sky are angry with me for the actions that I have put forth. Such horrible things that I have done. I hope it will all go away in due time, or rather, fixed before it was even committed.

Time is Running Short

I have till next week to find a book that I can read and finish it within this time. I will also need to find someone who I can interview. The biggest issue with the interview is having a good number of questions. Any thoughts?
There is a spell I want to preform for the class though I don't know if it will work or if they can see/believe it was done. I have done magic/spells in this class before, though most never noticed until I told those few what was going on. However the spell I wish to do is on a much grander scale.

The Issues

Finding resources and credible accounts of anything that I have been studying. The biggest help I've received is from a source I can not prove exists. Though I've had others experience the things I did, though some couldn't no matter how persistent.
I need a more professional individual to help my search for knowledge, however proving credibility is possibly the biggest fault.

A Great Trial

I am researching the components of a soul. To use a soul the main point many have done before was absorb the souls energy, I intend to use every single piece of it. The conscience, energy and form will be used for a grand spell, that if done correctly, could drastically change the world.
Impossible it may seem, and will have a great risk of failure. The consequences for doing such could very well kill me, completely fail (nothing happens) or leave the world soulless.

The issues of self learning

Self teaching can only take you so far. Although I've gotten fairly far with research and meditation, I cannot move forward. So I have decided to look for someone who can train me in these arts.
I would appreciate any form of help. Books would probably help until they no longer.

With the Time I Have Left

Over the next week, I will find a book and an expert of the craft if possible. Hopefully I will be able to learn more or correct my current knowledge. The resulting product will appear on the presentation as the first step. Then the first spell will be preformed in class or in presentation.
Now by the end of may I will preform another spell in the presentation/class that is suitable and would not harm anyone in the room. This will be the result of all my research and practice. I hope that this will inspire more to believe, respect or research the subject.

The worlds desire

A few nights ago there was a decision I had to make, the clock had started again. It appears as though the world wishes for the clock to never hit zero, so I listened. Ignoring the world before has always ended in a terrible action, so following it will be done. Who can deny the world? After all we live on her.

Proposal

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1pFF2ZWueYLOJn3Eh1yPyIp1w0Je4gy-0cdPGA0FS33Q/edit?usp=sharing

An attempt that was out of spite

I am sorry to say that I have attempted to bring misfortune onto someone, using a curse that was misunderstood. The only affects were to those around me and not the intended target. At least it was temporary, no one suffered.
I'm so very sorry, I have already broken my pledge of not hurting someone.
The next thing that I will try is to give someone luck, so they may receive benefits randomly, be it help, money or avoidance of danger.

A Start

Today I start a process, in which I will study various arts that involve spirits or the spiritual plane. Later I will practice minor incantations, spells or summoning.
NOTE : I will not practice anything to harm others or myself.


I hope this doesn't start a chain of reactions, such as it did last time it was attempted.